hushh raudah..he's an english!

20112008

i was just doing the daily routine that i do when im in this place.i wasnt feeling well today but i just get on with stuff.i had fever days before and i havent fully recovered.i was still weak but i still want to come in for work.i love this place.so i just get on serving the hungry customers as they came in and made their selection of these lovely malaysian cuisine.i just love serving these local people and watching them enjoying malaysian cuisine.my cuisine.

and i smiled as i always do.once a customer said to me, 'how do you manage with that smile all your day.'i laughed.oh well he just made me smiled more.
jones said he will only come here either on friday or saturday.'yes the food is nice but this place wouldnt be the same without your smile on every other days,raudah'.awww arent they sweet?

but today i wasnt as friendly because i still felt a bit sore.and thank God,it was a bit quiet today so i get to rest every now and then.and pak bong was very nice to me he cooked a hot soup and asked me to dig in so i can get well soon.'very soon.' he said.

it was around 7 when a couple came in and as i was busy serving them,another three teenagers came in and so another two guys.pakwe came to help behind the counter and served the three while i finished with the couple and get on with the two guys.only the blonde haired guy made his order for chicken laksa and some banana buttons while the other just smiled and stood back,i could felt his eyes were on me as i move back and forth behind the counter.ive got the money from the blonde guy and went on to the tall guy with short brown hair,a pair of beautiful blue eyes and a very nice smile.i turned to him and he smiled.

'hi raudah.u dont remember me do you'

'harry' a handsome guy like you?of course i remember you!

'i thought u have forgotten me'

'i dont.u did'

'i did?'

'u said ure coming in again before i finish my shift at half past six but you didnt.i waited for you' i pulled a face.and yes i did wait for him.he came in last saturday not to buy the food but just to say hi to me.i finish at 630 and so he said he'l drop in before i finish my shift to catch up with me.
he laughed.a cute one and smiled sheepishly.

'oooh.i thought u have forgotten me.okay okay.i am very sorry that i didnt drop by the other day.it was a very busy day and i stayed back until 10pm.' and he winked.

'oh realy?oh well im sorry then' puzzled and stuttered.puzzled because i was thinking what did i just do??and stuttered finding the right word to say.and im about to blush.rewinding the past few seconds in my head.macam tgh merajuk dgn boyfren la plak.okay.i blushed.

'uhm..' i grin.no appropriate smile could come out now.only grin.

'yea i always make sure to drop by this place every thursday and saturday to meet you.'

'so come over this saturday.i finish at 630 but i'l wait for u' he finishes his shift at 7.and omg im hitting on this guy!!

'yes sure and i'l make sure of that!'

the blonde haired guy was standing there all along watching us talk.he's got his food and he's ready to go.

'so i wil see u on saturday,raudah' harry said as he walked out of the door.he waved and he winked.

and there i was standing behind the counter,smilling.a broad one. :)

writing with my eyes closed

i just have this great feeling of being able to smile again.i saw it today and without hesitating,i smiled.and i dont know what or how or where the courage had came from but i just smiled.and yes me,i just smiled.

i guess fantasies are not to be lived.fantasies are just too beautiful that they are to remain as fantasies.fantasies are just too great that we'll end up in resentment trying to realize it in real life.

its a simple fact.and so i learnt.

life is never ending-ly filled with dramas.it doesnt matter how i put in words that my life is tiring or full of dramas or many other excitement,there will always be other peoples' lives that are not any short of such events.there will always be peoples' lives that are more tiring than mine.that were filled with more wicked dramas than mine.and of course there are others with more life excitement than mine.

life is interesting.life is full of excitement.life is tailored the way one leads his life.and that makes it incomparable between one another.

and so we move on with life.i move on with life.waking up hoping that today will be better than yesterday.hoping that today will feel better than yesterday.hoping that today will patch the wound that yesterday could not.hoping that today will hushh the anger away.hoping that today will heal the pain from yesterday.

but there's always the fact that we often neglect.

the pain is always going to be there.we gradually get over the pain.it doesnt go away but its just became easier to live with.sometimes it takes weeks.sometimes it takes months.sometimes it takes years.but eventually we'll come to the point where we only think of them occassionally.

so i smiled.it was a happy smile.i was being happy for it.but i knew the pain is always there.maybe ive just came to the point where i am immuned with the pain that i didnt realize it is even there.but it is there and it is always going to be there.

but im indifferent now.even if the pain is there i could not feel it anymore.im stone hard and i just couldnt care less.i just need to get on with life and live the norm.

and so i smile.i have always been smiling and i will always do.even if i dont feel like to,i will still smile.even if i feel crushed with pain,i will still smile.because a stranger's smile always makes my day.and i dont know whose life will i touch when i put on the smile on my face.

and i still feel awkward knowing people that i knew is reading this.

happy birthday love! xxx

ATTENTIONNNN EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!

i would like to announce to everyone that today is my besties' birthday and i love her very much and i wish her all the happiness in the world..

let us all sing together with me..



and this is my birthday present for you love..



i might not be there but i hope im always present in your life..i hope you will get a year wiser and 365 more of lovely days with your mr. kambeng..

kind regards,
your other half. xxx