i was so nervous

i did. i was so nervous i felt like passing out. i was soo nervous my stomach could not take the roti bakar mamak i ordered for my breakfast. in fact i was so nervous i felt like throwing out!

urghh..okay enough with the drama.

today i went to attend an interview at Veritas for a short attachment / internship / training or whatever other terms you want to call it.i just thought well since im going back to school this september i better get myself grounded in architecture again.umm that doesnt sound right.i was mean to say that well,since ive been away from architecture itself for about a year now,the smart thing to do before getting back to school empty headed is to get a feel of it again and hopefully by these short attachments,i could grasp the essence or mood or the 'feel' that will prepare me for the coming 2 strainfull year.ouch i could feel it on my bone now. :s

the interview went well without any hiccups in which i was so grateful for.Alhamdulillah.and to make things short,ive nailed it.at first i thought it will be almost impossible for any company to accept me for the extremely short period of time what more to be welcomed by a high profiled company like them but i guess they are generous enough to offer me a placement with a belief that i can learn quite a lot while im with them provided that i myself am willing to put an extra effort to prove them that its worthwhile hiring me than those many other pending applicants.

and i know when i said 'im up for the challenge,' i made a big promise not only to them but also to myself to prove them what a Raudhah is worth.

huhuhuwaaa ayat berkobar kobar!!!!

oh well......

meantime,im still having kecut perut n all other nervous syndroms i had this morning.yes the interview was over successfully and yes im starting next week after im done with btn but no,these syndroms arent leaving.infact they got worst and started to give me high blood pressure.arghhhhh

errr please pray that i'll make it through this intensive 6 weeks insyaAllah.ameen

:S

home

2.37 am

and i cant sleep.oh well ive been sleeping the whole day it seems like its impossible to sleep now.the thought of being able to ride again excites me a lot.but thing is baba has got his bowling tournament tomorrow and i dont feel like going down to the stable on my own.i had a look at my equipments and they are still doing good.my breeches are still in a good condition but i couldnt find my glove anywhere.oh yeah i need to find myself a good chap soon.haha i know i know its not that im really good at it.but i have all the interest in equestrian and i find it a very fullfilling sport.

naah.put that aside.i wont make it for tomorrow being awake as late as now.and ema quits trotting.she finds it boring.blerhh whatever.

oh im sneezing again.i havent got this sinus problem since the past 12 months but here i am sneezing like all it matters.mama put me downstairs in the guest room to 'quarantine' me in fear of H1N1.i laughed but it is actually a good idea.atleast i got to sleep in the air cond.well its not that im being fussy here but hmm the heat is really getting on my nerve.and think of hot+humid.not good.i felt sticky and sweaty all day.yesterday i had shower after midnight because i felt sticky and sweaty.oh well it was a quick shower and so to extend the time i spend in the bathroom,i washed it from walls to the floor and from the mirrors to the wc.i spent hours in the bathroom early in the morning and as soon as i stepped out from the bathroom i saw the air cond.and i cursed myself.why did i have to go through all those scrubbing and polishing in the bathroom just to create an excuse to play with the water when i could just switch on the air cond and lie down comfortably without having my nails broken.hmm.but then i thought.oh well at least i know the bathroom is cleaned.happy thoughts =)

mila came yesterday and we had a loooooong talk.haha i know its just a talk but one thing you dont know is that its different talking to mila.she read me well and i love it.and i stupidly humiliate myself (as always) because i wore the same pattern shawl that i bought for her from Tie Rack.konon2 presentation dah cantik i gave it to her in a beautiful white Tie Rack box but then i remembered shoot i am wearing the same shawl.cepat2 bukak tudung n pretended like nothing happen but it couldnt be concealed anymore because it was so obvious.haha.oh well atleast you know that im still the clumsy adah u knew before =P

and oh i had dinner with kak aza n abg alfi before that.they are as happily married and i pray for their tiny tot to come soon.soooooonnnnnn.hehe.

aint it good to be home. =)

this journey

im dreading...

knowing the fact that i'll return here and things wouldnt be the same,im dreading my journey tomorrow..i want to stay here for as long as it can be for the way things are now...

*sobs*

silent

uhhh its actually me..and its raining on my cheek...:(

lihat di kanan --->

hehe

cuba lihat di kanan..yeayy ive put the toll hit counter sebab ive started publishing my blog link kat facebook!haha perak..i know i know lambat gleee ade blog baru nak letak..but heyy im opening up remember? :D :D

write summore soon..meantime got packing to do..

the clock is ticking fast

expressing my thought and writing a day to day feed are two different things.hmmm.

ookay i get it.

i know i should write more interesting feeds rather than just the unspoken words in my head.but heyy im trying to open up here okayy.

i'll keep trying and i think i really should soon.i guess the thought of being in such the distance scares me.a lot.we're going to be far apart so im going to write the updates more regularly so you will know what is happening.hopefully we'll have a good time while we're still here.

tic tic tic tic tic........

jam tolong cepat sikit jalan boleh tak?adah nak gi dating petang nanti.. ^-^