(Almost) Shattered Dream

I have a dream. A typical dream I would say.

I have a dream to be given away in my own house.

Although, it might seems bleak now.

Renovation work is going through big hump and what should have finished by now is only 10% done. Oh this is really a test.

I have a dream.

I have a dream to be given away in my own house.

I don't know if that is going to happen now. -.-

Frustration

Wish I'd taken Medicine instead of Architecture. I would have been a great doctor by now....

Hmm big lie obviously, Im a science idiot, literally.. If I do become a doctor my patients will not only be prescribed with medication but also medicine myth of the ancient malays. Yes I am a sucker for the myths of petua petua.

But yes I am not fit for medicine. Can't even tell if this is gastric or abdominal pain or etc etc.. And I'm not talking about other people. This is my own body and I'm the one who is feeling the pain but I can't tell what kind of pain it is.. Or to be exact where it is, for all I know, when I am in pain, everything hurts.

Basic structure 101.. Cant even tell the structure loading anymore..

Oh what a dumb ass!! (banging head on the wall)

Saving

Salah satu cara nak saving duit. One day while I was talking on the phone to Jeff,

Jeff : U jangan la merajuk selalu lagi dah. Kalau u merajuk nanti I kena buat benda2 merepek buang duit je.

Me : Haaa? Apsal I merajuk u buang duit?

Jeff : Kalau u merajuk I terpaksa beli itu ini. Pergi sana sini. Naik bus naik teksi etc etc. Macam mana nak saving duit nak kawen.

Hmmmmmm

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Its a funny arrangement, life. Its funny how we thought we are heading to one direction but in reality we are actually driving ourself away from that direction.

I had a confusing news yesterday. Needless to say I spent the whole morning crying to the comforting voice of mama and also Idora, a friend I look up as a family here.

Ah well. I will fight because I am a fighter.

And yeah today, for the first time that I could remember, mjjaj got mad at me.

So I am today a woman on the verge.

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