izinkan

i used to listen to izinkan a lot whenever i was having my down turn few years back.mun n nor called it my theme song.i always thought it was stupid to have anything thematic when you were in a relationship but i guess thats where i was wrong.when someone is in a relationship,they tend to be stupid.very stupid in some cases.no,im not referring to anyone in particular.ahah. :P
i am including myself within that stupid circle.look where i am now.big laugh.

so i was listening to malay songs on the youtube.and i was lying on the floor when izinkan pop up.i was stunned and automatically i sat up and stare into the screen.ngahahh.i havent heard this song for ages now.

Izinkan aku melafazkan isi hatiku
Kau yang satu, bagiku tiada lain darimu
Pasti ku kan ubati lukamu segala kemahuanmu, kuberi
Janjiku padamu hatiku hanya untukmu
Tiada yang lain darimu
Hasratku hanyalah untuk mu
Izinkan aku lafazkan isi hatiku
Masihkah aku
Bertakhta di hatimu
Janjiku padamu
Hatiku kau perlu tahu...
Mainanku igauanku hanya perasaan yang menular
Haruskah dirimu, membenci diriku
Kupohon maaf darimu
Tiada yang lain darimu
Hasratku hanyalah untukmu
Berikan diriku
Secebis senyum tawamu
Bagaikan mentari di hati
Bila kau kembali di sisi
Kau membawa erti hidupku ini

haa haa!!yerp i used to listen to this song a lot when i was in the finals.especially during the finals.sampai satu studio semua dah muak dengar lagu ni kite pasang kat speaker kuat2.because why,because we tend to fight and quarrel a lot whenever finals came approaching.well i need not mention here why but final were our most vulnerable time and we were both stressed out and exhausted catching up with the project submission that entertaining our 'other half' had became excessive and very tiring.especially on his part.ngahahaa nasib laa kann.it was,ahah,inevitable.and overwhelming.mane ade couple gaduh cekik cekik and tumbuk tumbuk kann.hahahaaaa something to laugh about now.not then,now.

oh well i dont know why i am writing about this here but i guess there are somewhat hopes that he will come across this piece.and if he ever did,there are so many things that i wanted to say to him.

hmm.where do i start?

terima kasih.
terima kasih sebab banyak benda kite belajar kat awak dulu.
percaye la kite memang adapt cakap awak walaupun awak tengok kite ni keras kepala gile mengalahkan batu.hahaaa
terima kasih sebab singgah dalam hidup kte (okay this sounds weird in malay) -> thanks for dropping by in my life and taught me values that werent easily grasped by words.
kite nak mintak maaf gak la kalau kite ade malu kan awak.
kite nak mintak maaf sebab kite salu gi sepak kereta awak dulu.ngehh ngehhh.open confession.
be a high flyer!kite tau cita cita awak tinggi.work for it!
jangan pakai baju yang kite bagi utk g ngorat pompuan.hishh selamber jer.
oh,kalau jumpe mun,go pick on her like the old times.suke tengok korang.hehe.
oh oh lagi satu.gambar2 kte banyak2 yang kite tumpang dalam laptop awak dulu,tolong burn kan cd untuk kite.kite takde copy la.hehe tq.

just so you know,you're the rare species of men left on this land.you might be cranky on the outside but you're worth more than those pulled together.live a good life! *wink*

and to his girl.i didnt mean to offend you with this post.i just wanted to say you're lucky.he is a good guy and he's more than what meet the eyes.and dont worry,im over him. :)

white flag.

thinking.do i have the courage to publish this post?hmmm............